July 10 -- thursday

6/8  Clouds/Coffin -- King of clubs/ 9 of diamonds

If I were using these as playing cards, I'd first notice that 9 of diamonds -- an unlucky card (nothing at all like 9 of pentacles in Tarot). 9 of diamonds is known as the curse of Scotland  9 diamonds were stolen from a crown of Queen Mary of Scotts and a severe tax was levied against the people until the cost was recovered. But the meaning most like the Lenormand is shown in the story of the the Butcher Duke of Cumberland who once wrote an order on a 9 of diamonds to kill all Scottish prisoners.

Here, in Lenormand, 9 of diamonds is the Coffin

The Kings of the playing cards represent Kings of the past. The King of Diamonds represents Ceaser Augustus, King of Spades = King David, King of Hearts is the French Kind Charlemagne, and King of Clubs represents Alexander the Great.

Here in Lenormand, King of clubs is Clouds

Is my card reading today, end of confusion or ending causes confusion? Clouds is the noun and Coffin is the adjective. Confused about endings?

According to Lenomand Combinations: Something is up and there is an end to confusion.

Note (July 15th). There is confusion of when to end something. Is it a good thing to stay here and fix this house. The money it would take to repair all that needs repaired would be more than the house would be worth in this location. Plus, this is not the location where we want to live. It is acceptable, yes. But it is not the best we can do.  At 60, there is no time to bide our time. These are not our people. Except those few who will remain no matter where we live.

Yesterday, we were both on the same wavelength and it may not have been a good one. Surely, it was confusing. I asked when we were going to begin the repairs and his reaction was something that made us both laugh (later). Because he went to get the repairs done on the truck (our ticket out of here).

Sweet little house with sooooooo many problems has been good to us. Kept us warm this past winter, for certain. But the lead paint, the crumbling sheetrock (which has been papered -- and then painted over the paper). The horrid carpets that cover an equally horrid floor that will need resurfaced. The water that drips. The fact that there is no shower and no tub -- and the bathroom needs extensive work to put it all to rights. The wiring needs redone -- we have no light at all in the kitchen and the outlets that are available in a few places pull out from the wall and are unsafe. The back of the house gets pelted with golfballs as the gold course owners (also the Mayor) won't put up a net. We have broken windows and dented siding. The porch sags and the poorch floor is about to fall through near the front door. The doors are bad as well and are another expense.  Yet, in this town, houses in good repair sell for $15,000 to $30,000. And this house would be on the low-end, even after repairs as it is a narrow company house on the main road, with a tiny yard out front and the golf course behind.

Confusion of how and when to move -- how much to spend on repairs before we leave -- whether to repair the place and rent it out or sell it as is for another to repair. And... there is the question of where we'll move. We think, maybe, Fayetteville. We think of Asheville a lot, as well. And we're thinking, even, of down near Princeton. There are reasons for each direction, and against each direction.

Yes, I have to say, the cards meant confusion about endings. Confusion first. About possible future endings.