Jack of hearts, King of spades, 9 of diamonds
Ominous. The experts tell me that pairing heart and clouds means there is a dishonest relationship. I would say confusion about a relationship. Isn't there always? Not me and Honey, though. We've figured ours out, pretty much in these many years since 1976 when we first say "I do" and then did.
But other relationships -- with friends, community, are ever in flux. Who likes us, who decided no to. Who is gossiping and who listening? We've been together with people before and going along, doing fine, only to find we weren't so fine, after all. As my grandaughter said recently, "I don't know who to trust."
a year ago, we got knocked pretty hard -- but that can't happen again. Haven't given anyone that kind of power since. Nowdays, it makes me smile to watch the wheels turn as someone decides: for? against? Are they good enough?
It looks like some cloudy relationship is about to end. I don't know in what direction. Or how it hardly matters.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Cross, Mountain, Child
Gah! So incredibly not true. I'm such a baby at these new cards, I am, of course, turning to the experts to tell me what is being said.
Today I got Cross, Mountain, and Child as the outcome card. Cross is the subject, mountain the adjective.
The question simmering in the back of my mind these last several weeks is "where in the hell is my devotional focus?" I can go by rote, but I'm not feeling it. I'm looking at these books I've collected so long and thinking... what is this? These people don't know any more than I know -- they're making shit up. Well, a few of them I still look to with deference -- the big guys, Dion Fortune and Doreen Valiente -- those guys. But the dozens of pagan cookbooks I've got on my shelf with rituals and rhymes. They are beginning to irk me. I have loved these for a long time. But now, I'm wanting to send them on to whoever should need them, except I expect no one needs them. Things have shifted. Not only for me, I think. I think we've grown up and we don't need Reclaiming giving us rhymes or Silver giving us spells.
I recently fell head over heels for Arthurian legend. I mean, baby, I FEEL it. But it's not a religion is it? Anyway, it was a distraction and I think it was to keep my mind busy a bit with other matters while something took shape. As one book of Merlin said, I need to know which God is calling me.
May I digress and say, Frigga and Forsetti are my Goddess and God. Or have been. Lately, it's been more about the Ancestors than anyone else.
But the wheel is in spin.
It's THIS the cards was addressing. Lenormand experts tell me differently. But I know what I know. And I'm not into experts at this time.
What it is telling me and reassuring me with -- "you have built this devotion over many years, and it is taking a new turn, but this does not discard what has been built, it only takes it in new directions. Allow...."
Today I got Cross, Mountain, and Child as the outcome card. Cross is the subject, mountain the adjective.
The question simmering in the back of my mind these last several weeks is "where in the hell is my devotional focus?" I can go by rote, but I'm not feeling it. I'm looking at these books I've collected so long and thinking... what is this? These people don't know any more than I know -- they're making shit up. Well, a few of them I still look to with deference -- the big guys, Dion Fortune and Doreen Valiente -- those guys. But the dozens of pagan cookbooks I've got on my shelf with rituals and rhymes. They are beginning to irk me. I have loved these for a long time. But now, I'm wanting to send them on to whoever should need them, except I expect no one needs them. Things have shifted. Not only for me, I think. I think we've grown up and we don't need Reclaiming giving us rhymes or Silver giving us spells.
I recently fell head over heels for Arthurian legend. I mean, baby, I FEEL it. But it's not a religion is it? Anyway, it was a distraction and I think it was to keep my mind busy a bit with other matters while something took shape. As one book of Merlin said, I need to know which God is calling me.
May I digress and say, Frigga and Forsetti are my Goddess and God. Or have been. Lately, it's been more about the Ancestors than anyone else.
But the wheel is in spin.
It's THIS the cards was addressing. Lenormand experts tell me differently. But I know what I know. And I'm not into experts at this time.
What it is telling me and reassuring me with -- "you have built this devotion over many years, and it is taking a new turn, but this does not discard what has been built, it only takes it in new directions. Allow...."
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Rider, Fish, Scythe --
Ah but we knew, didn't we, that I'd never keep this going, day after day. I don't even own a deck of cards -- only a playing deck that I bought for 50c at the local mart, with the deuces through fives discarded. And I set off well, reading several times a day for a lot of folks -- good readings, too, backed up by tarot, by runes, or by I-Ching (as if to test myself).
But recorded daily here, like showing up for a day job? Nah. I knew it wouldn't happen.
Today's cards: 9 of hearts, King of diamonds, Jack of diamonds
Rider, Fish, Scythe
Yes. I do know what this is about. We will be traveling to take care of business. And we will end the dependency a few of our renters have on this willingness to take advantage of two people who have given them every break. One dude would rather have his dope and one would rather feed his church. I don't care what they do with their extra money, but I told them both to make paying for the roof over their heards a priority. I thought there might be a glimmer of intelligence in there somewhere. Perhaps, I valued them higher than they valued themselves. We've still not heard from Ham and Henry. And so. Yes. We will travel.
In recent news, we were on a trip to Asheville and our truck was demolished by a man of the same cloth as those above, driving 60 in a 35 mile-zone and under the influence, without so much as a driver licence with him. He ended up with his mother's car upside down in the road and he crawled out the broken window, without a scratch, and asked for a cigarette. Meanwhile, Our truck was totaled. We are now driving a small red car with better gas mileage. Guess traveling was in the stars.
But recorded daily here, like showing up for a day job? Nah. I knew it wouldn't happen.
Today's cards: 9 of hearts, King of diamonds, Jack of diamonds
Rider, Fish, Scythe
Yes. I do know what this is about. We will be traveling to take care of business. And we will end the dependency a few of our renters have on this willingness to take advantage of two people who have given them every break. One dude would rather have his dope and one would rather feed his church. I don't care what they do with their extra money, but I told them both to make paying for the roof over their heards a priority. I thought there might be a glimmer of intelligence in there somewhere. Perhaps, I valued them higher than they valued themselves. We've still not heard from Ham and Henry. And so. Yes. We will travel.
In recent news, we were on a trip to Asheville and our truck was demolished by a man of the same cloth as those above, driving 60 in a 35 mile-zone and under the influence, without so much as a driver licence with him. He ended up with his mother's car upside down in the road and he crawled out the broken window, without a scratch, and asked for a cigarette. Meanwhile, Our truck was totaled. We are now driving a small red car with better gas mileage. Guess traveling was in the stars.
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
which deck?
I may soon have my Lenormand deck. In the meantime, I'm reading the I-Ching and using my tarot. Something's up and the cards have been troublesome. Now, I-Ching (which had said Darkening of the Light) says we are at the point of something new.
Thursday, July 10, 2014
July 10 -- thursday
6/8 Clouds/Coffin -- King of clubs/ 9 of diamonds
If I were using these as playing cards, I'd first notice that 9 of diamonds -- an unlucky card (nothing at all like 9 of pentacles in Tarot). 9 of diamonds is known as the curse of Scotland 9 diamonds were stolen from a crown of Queen Mary of Scotts and a severe tax was levied against the people until the cost was recovered. But the meaning most like the Lenormand is shown in the story of the the Butcher Duke of Cumberland who once wrote an order on a 9 of diamonds to kill all Scottish prisoners.
Here, in Lenormand, 9 of diamonds is the Coffin
The Kings of the playing cards represent Kings of the past. The King of Diamonds represents Ceaser Augustus, King of Spades = King David, King of Hearts is the French Kind Charlemagne, and King of Clubs represents Alexander the Great.
Here in Lenormand, King of clubs is Clouds
Is my card reading today, end of confusion or ending causes confusion? Clouds is the noun and Coffin is the adjective. Confused about endings?
According to Lenomand Combinations: Something is up and there is an end to confusion.
Note (July 15th). There is confusion of when to end something. Is it a good thing to stay here and fix this house. The money it would take to repair all that needs repaired would be more than the house would be worth in this location. Plus, this is not the location where we want to live. It is acceptable, yes. But it is not the best we can do. At 60, there is no time to bide our time. These are not our people. Except those few who will remain no matter where we live.
Yesterday, we were both on the same wavelength and it may not have been a good one. Surely, it was confusing. I asked when we were going to begin the repairs and his reaction was something that made us both laugh (later). Because he went to get the repairs done on the truck (our ticket out of here).
Sweet little house with sooooooo many problems has been good to us. Kept us warm this past winter, for certain. But the lead paint, the crumbling sheetrock (which has been papered -- and then painted over the paper). The horrid carpets that cover an equally horrid floor that will need resurfaced. The water that drips. The fact that there is no shower and no tub -- and the bathroom needs extensive work to put it all to rights. The wiring needs redone -- we have no light at all in the kitchen and the outlets that are available in a few places pull out from the wall and are unsafe. The back of the house gets pelted with golfballs as the gold course owners (also the Mayor) won't put up a net. We have broken windows and dented siding. The porch sags and the poorch floor is about to fall through near the front door. The doors are bad as well and are another expense. Yet, in this town, houses in good repair sell for $15,000 to $30,000. And this house would be on the low-end, even after repairs as it is a narrow company house on the main road, with a tiny yard out front and the golf course behind.
Confusion of how and when to move -- how much to spend on repairs before we leave -- whether to repair the place and rent it out or sell it as is for another to repair. And... there is the question of where we'll move. We think, maybe, Fayetteville. We think of Asheville a lot, as well. And we're thinking, even, of down near Princeton. There are reasons for each direction, and against each direction.
Yes, I have to say, the cards meant confusion about endings. Confusion first. About possible future endings.
If I were using these as playing cards, I'd first notice that 9 of diamonds -- an unlucky card (nothing at all like 9 of pentacles in Tarot). 9 of diamonds is known as the curse of Scotland 9 diamonds were stolen from a crown of Queen Mary of Scotts and a severe tax was levied against the people until the cost was recovered. But the meaning most like the Lenormand is shown in the story of the the Butcher Duke of Cumberland who once wrote an order on a 9 of diamonds to kill all Scottish prisoners.
Here, in Lenormand, 9 of diamonds is the Coffin
The Kings of the playing cards represent Kings of the past. The King of Diamonds represents Ceaser Augustus, King of Spades = King David, King of Hearts is the French Kind Charlemagne, and King of Clubs represents Alexander the Great.
Here in Lenormand, King of clubs is Clouds
Is my card reading today, end of confusion or ending causes confusion? Clouds is the noun and Coffin is the adjective. Confused about endings?
According to Lenomand Combinations: Something is up and there is an end to confusion.
Note (July 15th). There is confusion of when to end something. Is it a good thing to stay here and fix this house. The money it would take to repair all that needs repaired would be more than the house would be worth in this location. Plus, this is not the location where we want to live. It is acceptable, yes. But it is not the best we can do. At 60, there is no time to bide our time. These are not our people. Except those few who will remain no matter where we live.
Yesterday, we were both on the same wavelength and it may not have been a good one. Surely, it was confusing. I asked when we were going to begin the repairs and his reaction was something that made us both laugh (later). Because he went to get the repairs done on the truck (our ticket out of here).
Sweet little house with sooooooo many problems has been good to us. Kept us warm this past winter, for certain. But the lead paint, the crumbling sheetrock (which has been papered -- and then painted over the paper). The horrid carpets that cover an equally horrid floor that will need resurfaced. The water that drips. The fact that there is no shower and no tub -- and the bathroom needs extensive work to put it all to rights. The wiring needs redone -- we have no light at all in the kitchen and the outlets that are available in a few places pull out from the wall and are unsafe. The back of the house gets pelted with golfballs as the gold course owners (also the Mayor) won't put up a net. We have broken windows and dented siding. The porch sags and the poorch floor is about to fall through near the front door. The doors are bad as well and are another expense. Yet, in this town, houses in good repair sell for $15,000 to $30,000. And this house would be on the low-end, even after repairs as it is a narrow company house on the main road, with a tiny yard out front and the golf course behind.
Confusion of how and when to move -- how much to spend on repairs before we leave -- whether to repair the place and rent it out or sell it as is for another to repair. And... there is the question of where we'll move. We think, maybe, Fayetteville. We think of Asheville a lot, as well. And we're thinking, even, of down near Princeton. There are reasons for each direction, and against each direction.
Yes, I have to say, the cards meant confusion about endings. Confusion first. About possible future endings.
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