Lenormand Day -- June 25, 2014

24/20 -- heart, garden

You have to think these out carefully. Why would heart and garden mean uncommitted? That is one meaning of this pair. It also means, as I thought on first seeing them, that your heart is not apart from community. A gathering of like-minded (same heart) people.

In short:  You have Tribe.

My gods, how I looked and longed for Tribe.  In my searching for them, they evaded me. We would approach, but I was too helpful, too giving. It is a failing. I could give astrological reasons why, but it would sound like excuses -- which it isn't.  Nevertheless, it seemed once I became familiar with folks, they would judge me lacking and move on. Or... something of that nature.

It was only after I gave up -- and tried to shove them away -- that they came.

Now, there is this huge Tribe of which we are a part and the smaller Tribe of the coven. And there is my Heart Tribe -- husband, children, grandchildren.

Since the great fiasco of 2012, and the angry folks we fell in with at that time, (and the subsequent removal from them), I've learned to keep as well as give, to be speak as well as be silent, to get out of my head and into communication with others. And to listen carefully to not only what they say but what they are saying.

I was talking with my oldest sister on the phone yesterday and suddenly realized I was listening in a different way. Instead of hearing her judgments of me (I'm going to hell), I was hearing her pain. Instead of responding to her criticisms, I was giving her reasons for hope. I turned each thing she said (and only once resorted to talk of the weather as a diversion).  She is Christian, but not a Believer.  That is, she follows the form, but has not really dived, and is terrified she'll make a mistake. She's frightened of everything. I'd given her Gibran's book, The Prophet. She returned it, angry about its contents, fearful she would be contaminated by thoughts not in the Bible. (She won't enter my house - the house of a Pagan -- for the same reason).

She lived with two abusive husbands. The first, bound to whiskey and pills, beat her. The second kept her with domination of his Christian religion. She is free of them now, but not of what they built. I heard all of that and let her talk. It was our best conversation to date.

What do I think these cards are saying?  I think they are a confirmation that we do, truly, have Tribe. I don't need to be as cautious as my sister, afraid of messing up and getting kicked out of the kingdom.  Mom said it best when I was a child, "If you whittle yourself to meet everyone you meet, pretty soon, you don't have any stick left."